Saturday, June 28, 2008

All Alone...

I had the weirdest day today.. I went with my family to the mall to search for a job and I swear I almost had a panic attack!! I think it was all the people.. the uber-american crowds of people. I am just so use to creative/stylish people and and I was back in the "crombie" world. I guess I'll just readjust but i mean NYC is only 6 weeks away so I'll be back around people that inspire me again!! Also, it's been almost a week since I've seen my bubbs and it's just not getting better..

I just hope it does soon...

Thursday, June 5, 2008

P.S. I love you

So I finally watched the movie!!! Boy, was it worth it.. I seriously cried the whole way through. It was such a beautiful movie though. I love movies that make you believe in hope. I'm such a sap I guess, that's probably why I love The Notebook so much. I think every person wants that kind of love..the one where you can't eat, can't sleep, and can't even imagine life being 1/5 a good as it is when your with them. So before I get too emotional, I will leave on that note sayings.. just remember "All you need is Love"... xoxo

It's Nearing that time..

So as my lovely bubbs pointed out to me today I have but 18 days left until my adventures in Manchester come to an end... I am losing so much this time.. I swear since I started uni I always just seem to keep losing the people that I come to love and adore. I mean don't get me wrong I miss my friends and family terribly.. but then I actually love my life here. I am doing what I love (styling), traveling, and being around amazing people who have helped me become an even better person than I ever thought I could be. My friends here though few, have taught me so much about life. Before I came here, I would have never considered myself narrow minded, or closed from experiences. Well I guess that's wear believing you can do something is different than actually doing it. It's so hard right now.. from one end my friends and family from home are so excited about my return then here my friends and boyfriend are terribly upset. I mean I have been with my bubbs for almost 3 years now and it just truly unfair really. Though I am young, and people always say there's always someone else out there for you, I know in my heart that my bubbs is "The One." It is the most amazing feeling I've ever experienced.

I know that my move to NYC in August is going to be life changing but that change was suppose to happen with him, you know?? NYC is such a scary place, the thought of me living there on my own is terrifying. I feel like I'm going to get lost, or become cold and distant. I want to have a new experience, a life altering one you know?? But who is so say this experience is going to be good and the optimistic side of me says who's to say it's going to be bad. I am really looking forward to starting my journey to my "adult" life. I got into the program at FIT and have already found some certificate programs in styling that should help me develop my skills. I hope the contacts I have in NYC will give me that edge in the industry. I so look forward to what's the next chapter in my life..

I guess this thing is helpful.. I just hope what's next includes more stability, if only for a bit you know.. because I'm realizing I have just about everything I've ever wanted.. love, happiness, amazing friends, and crazy yet loving family, and so much time ahead of me..

I guess only time will tell... xoxo

Wednesday, June 4, 2008


So like most women out there, I went to see the Sex and the City movie last week with my girlie's from The Old Bank.. Needless to say the movie was amazing!! I mean not in that Oscar/Cannes/Sundance winning film kind of way but as a loyal viewer and fan of the show it definitely exceeded my expectations!! Carrie,Charlotte,Samantha,and Miranda were back and more glamorous,wealthy,and fabulously amazing than ever. After much thought I have decided that the wedding scene was from a fashion lover's favorite set of garments that the ladies wore. Carrie's Vivienne Westwood couture bridal gown was perfection. By before the movie not necessarily being a fan of the designer's work THAT dress make me think twice. The cut,color choice,fit, fabric was just beautiful. Usually in weddings the bride looks the best and then there are the cliche tacky bridesmaid dresses, Carrie (or the legendary Patricia Field) would not have it. The ladies however, after a bit of research I found out that they wore gowns by Zac Posen from his Spring 2008 collection. ( really stands a statement to him and his range of garments for women. Especially since we as fans identify so much with the show and its characters, the dresses just translate so well into that settings.

Weddings are such a taboo thing for women to love, but for me it's just a party that has beautiful gowns and just a reason to celebrate and have a good time enjoying the one's you love. Many people think that because of my complex relationship with my Bubbs, that we should be engaged or married already. We both just feel were too young but in the sense of stablility and security. We want a big wedding.. and we both know right now that's just not going to happen anytime soon. So we wait!! One day we'll have an amazing wedding and I can reassure my friends and potential bridesmaids, " you will look just as amazing as the women of SATC and better!!" hehe I've attached a picture of the ladies.. just look and drool... ;)